Denied

My sister called while I was in Waco, “Eddie, I just wanted to let you know that they owners of the house you wanted accepted another offer.” Crestfallen, depressed, disappointed – these are just a few adjectives that described how I felt. I had already envisioned the colors I was going to paint the living room. I had seen an oversized antique clock that I thought would look perfect hanging over the fireplace.  Mentally I had placed the furniture, the color, the style. Parties were planned, seeds of hope were planted and in one 15 second phone call all of those dreams were dashed.

I allowed myself to lament my house for a few minutes. I knew better than to get emotionally attached to one place. Emotions drive out logic. Emotions frustrate the mind and keep you from making smart business decisions. Impulse buys are bought from emotion.

I have to admit that I have been a bit impulsive lately. I moved in with my biological father in an effort to save money and at the same time to get to know him better. Our relationship has never been great and it has only been in recent months that I realized I didn’t know much about him. Things that I should know, like his age, his birthday, and whether or not he likes chocolate.  The idea of moving in with him seemed like a good idea, but what I didn’t realize is that it would throw me out of my routine and I need routine and structure in order to stay healthy both mentally and physically. I like things a certain way in my house, I don’t like to share, I don’t like not having my Verizon Fios cable and being able to set the air conditioner at sub-zero temperatures. I’m spoiled and I knew that moving in with my real dad would be a challenge, but I didn’t know it was going to be a challenge that I wasn’t ready for. It’s too much, too quickly.

So I have to balance my need for my space with my need to control my emotion and impulsivity – a feat on par with stopping the Titanic from sinking after it hit that iceberg.

I’m going to look at 2 new houses this afternoon at lunch time and so hopefully one of them looks like a winner. The funny thing is that one of the houses is one that I wanted before I found this other one so it’s not too impulsive if I decide to make an offer on it! 🙂